I really want to write but my family is so loud, its hard to block them out!
I do enjoy listening to them assertively express their opinions.
Extended family issues have been made complicated. Repeated because they’ve been left unresolved.
So silly. Simplicity guys 😛 Keep it Soufully Simple
That was earlier today. It’s now Midnight. There’s peace now.
To be honest. I am thinking about love tonight.
I’m thinking about the man who I talk to most at present. I wonder how I could meet such a man who could very well be close to perfect for me but his past, present, and the little bits and pieces in between sets us so far apart. I compare him to the one that came before him, the one who now lives in my fading past: the memories of what he use to like; the conversations that felt so real; the fantasies that made both of us laugh; the music we love and shared. I do miss that connection, no matter how one sided it ended up being. It felt comforting. He eased my day. Even though most of it came from, and to, endless nothings. Although inappropriate, at the time, he filled the void that I needed a man to fill.
I actually do ask myself “Why don’t I just hook up with the next guy that comes and see where it takes me?”
But my heart says no. I choose not to settle for “he will do.” It’s not fair for him and for me.
What do I want? I know what I’m looking for but it seems I just cannot not fully share such fine details.
But I believe I’ll know it’s him when I find him. He will naturally glow with what I’m looking for.
Feel the love you say you have
I look at myself in the mirror
and I ask
Will you ever let another feel the love you say you have
There’s an intense desire to share love
but no man seems worthy to receive the love
will you ever get to meet and keep “the one”
or should I get use to staring at you being only as one.
Getting too melodramatic for my liking … and sleepy so I’m going to leave this post as it is here.